So much failure

I show 922685 steps over 168 days.  That's pretty good I guess.

I still have pain.  I don't have as many bizarre side effects.  Lots of pain.

Months ago I gave up trying to exercise because of the pain and complications.  My health has gotten worse as a result.

But now I'm trying to give up trying to give up.  A week ago I felt good enough ride my bicycle a few miles, something I hadn't done in months.  I've gone swimming twice.  Today, for 1km and then I treaded water for 30 minutes.  I had intended to tread water for 60 minutes, but it was boring.  Really boring.